could it be cupidity?

March 1, 2010 § 2 Comments

So, a lot of this blog has been about some search for meaning, satisfaction, or growth in my life.  I think we all seek something greater than what we’ve already known, and, if you’re anything like me, you will always be looking for the next big thing.

I’ve wondered about this a lot — about what ambition is to me, and perhaps more importantly, about what ambition does to me.  You know, we all talk of priorities, goals, aspirations, dreams, passions, but at what point in our search is ‘good enough’ good enough?

I grow and I climb and I seek and I hunt.  I rise.  I’m of the breed Type A, and for my people, there exists an infinite trajectory for this search, and no fathomable completion save for death.  It sounds morbid, but I just don’t see an end to my maniacal want for more.  I know I’m a student of life for life.  I know I’ll never stop wanting to be better, to know better, to feel better.  And I know that’s not actually a bad thing, but, if the search never ends, then do you ever really reach a point of satisfaction?

Will here and now, with what I have and what I know, ever be enough?


§ 2 Responses to could it be cupidity?

  • alysha says:

    gah “save for death”!

    but yeah, i dunno man. i’m clueless too.

  • T says:

    “It did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us. We needed to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were being questioned by life – daily and hourly. Our answer must consist, not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct. Life ultimately means taking the responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual.”

    -Viktor Frankl

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